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Dreams…and then there are nightmares.

16 Dec

I always have weird dreams. Some are just a mixture of what I have been talking about with people and what I watch on TV, others are just totally weird and out of no where. Then, there are the dreams that come directly from God. Those are different from every other dream. They are more like a vision, or like watching a movie in 3D with some type of super surround sound where you see, feel, hear, and smell everything going on. (I’m sure you could taste too if that had something to do with the vision.) 🙂

I’m no dream expert and I don’t try to evaluate and find out what each of my dreams mean, but if I have a dream that I remember so vividly like it was something that happened yesterday, then I take a closer look. God can talk to us in many ways and I don’t want to miss a chance of talking to Him.

In my dream last night it was like I could not open my eyes wide enough or something was covering my eyes. Almost like super dark and grainy sunglasses. I even had to rub my eyes a lot once a woke up this morning to make sure I really could see. All throughout my dream I had the horrible man leading me around through all these broken down buildings. He was evil, I could just feel it. He made me so upset because he kept talking about all the women’s lives he had messed up, and how he had hurt so many people in different ways.

It makes me shudder just typing about this.

I kept trying to get away from him and get out where I could see, but I was lost. We were in a maze of dilapidated buildings and it was almost like we were underground. Finally we got to this filthy room where there was only one door in and out. There was a shower in the corner and a broken sink and a toilet right in the middle of this gross room. The [evil] man walked over to the toilet and kept shoving things back down into it that were popping up.

I somehow got to the shower and was trying to hang this curtain back up. I knew I had to put that shower curtain up, but the man just kept laughing and laughing and shoving things back in to the toilet and telling me I’m worthless and I’ll never be able to do it. I tried to yell back, “Yes I can, I can do anything.” But, it came out weird and echoing instead. Then people starting coming in to the room to help me. It started getting brighter and we all struggled and worked hard to get that curtain up and finally we did and we all fit behind it in the shower. Then I could see, and I woke up.

I started getting ready for work and all I kept praying was, “Man, God I never want to know that kind of darkness and evil. I never want to be in a place like that. I want to always know you and have your light everywhere I am. I always want to be with you.”

It was amazing really. I had been having a hard time praying recently and felt it was just the enemy pressing down on me. Every time I prayed it felt like it was fake, that I was just reciting things I’m supposed to say and pray for. And finally this morning when I woke up and prayed it was very real. I never wanted to be a dark place like that where I could see and didn’t know how to get out of it. I had broken through a barrier that was around me and maybe I had placed it on myself.

All I know is that I never want to go back to living in the world. I never want to lose my faith and love for Jesus. I never want to lose site of what is really important and what is just meaningless and of the world, because I think that’s how it would be if I did. It would be just like my dream. And in the unseen world I would be led around blind by something evil, just like all those who don’t yet know about Jesus.

I’m no longer walking around blind, but I know people who are and I want so much for them to know true and everlasting love and comfort.

Be Blessed, Adri

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A gift that I want everyone to receive.

13 Dec

Today is different. Today is new. There has been a change.

It’s not the 28 degree weather or my last haircut or that I have a phone that actually works now.

It’s that every morning is a new day and I have been showered with God’s mercy and grace.

WHAT?  Let me explain…We are saved by grace, through our faith. Grace is what God offers all of us. We don’t deserve it because we are all sinners which is why it is also called “saving grace” or “unmerited favor.” From God’s grace comes mercy. The grace of God comes to us when we have faith in him and offers us mercy.

Mercy from what exactly?? Mercy from the wrath of God and the pit of Hell that we deserve because of our sin.

Gosh, doesn’t that sound scary? It does to me, it really, really does. It bothers me that some people do not know about God or maybe they do, but don’t understand this concept. Salvation is a gift and there has never been a more appropriate time of year to talk about it than right now.

Again, salvation is a gift from God – not something that you can get by the things you do or any other way. It’s in the bible people, Ephesians 2:4-9. Without God’s grace and mercy the payment for our sins is death. We can’t be saved by following rules and trying to be a good person, or by following religious ceremonies, regulations or performing so many good deeds.

We don’t have to do things to be close to God or gain his respect or “feel his presence.” God is not a legal entity forcing us to do things! God is all around us, he is next to us even now as I am writing this and as you are reading! He loves me and you and is always waiting on us. He is as far as the mention of his name. How amazing is that?!

I am so thankful that God has saved me and that he loves me so much to offer his grace and mercy.

Be Blessed, Adri

My Best 30 Ever

7 Oct

Last year my church, PromiseLand-San Marcos, did something called My Best 30 Ever (MB30E). It’s a 30 day plan to bring out the best Spiritual and Physical disciplines. It was great when I did it last year and I’m thinking about starting it again, starting this Sunday, October 10 and ending on Monday, November 8. Anybody want to do this with me? It would be great to have some encouragement for the days when I don’t feel like following through with the goals I set.

During MB30E there are two sections, spiritual and physical, that I am setting goals for. I’m going to break down everything I plan on doing below.

SPIRITUAL: Our relationship with God is the most important relationship of our life. We should spend time developing this relationship. There are many facets of personal devotion that are essential to a strong relationship with Jesus Christ. However, I will focus on 3 key ingredients: Prayer, scripture reading and fasting.

–         My prayer goal: 30 minutes per day (at least). I will pray consistently every day when I wake up and am getting ready for the day.

–         I will most likely pray for friends and family, that God’s will be done and for blessings in their lives. That God’s will be done in me and my husband’s life. That I would be open to hear God and break out of my comfort zone and away from the things of this world.

–         My reading goal: 30 minutes per day. I will read 15 minutes in the morning and 15 minutes at night.

–         My fasting goal: I am planning on multiple one day fasts. For instance every Sunday I will fast from all foods until dinner. During MB30E I will only allow myself sweets one time a week and no fast food or sodas.

PHYSICAL: I Corinthians 6:19 What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?  20For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s. (KJV)

We are unable to accomplish all that God has intended for us as long as we are physically destroying our bodies with our diet and lack of exercise.

–         My diet goals: Drink more water every day. You are supposed to drink half of your body weight in ounces per day.

–         I feel like I eat pretty healthy. I’d like to be able to try some new things and recipes…which will come in 8 days once Bobby’s fight is over and he’s not cutting weight anymore. He’s been sticking to the paleo diet. Which is great, but I love having breads and granola and sweets too much. I also definitely miss black beans and couscous and pancakes and waffles… I think you get the picture. Paleo just isn’t for me, but eating healthy definitely is!

–         Exercise: I’ve been doing C25K… I just want to keep up with that every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. On the off days I’d like to get some weights in or Pilates. I’m not trying to lose weight, I just want to stay toned and healthy!

So, what do you say? Are you with me?

Be Blessed, Adri

 

The wrong side of the bed.

4 Oct

This morning I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I was having the strangest dreams…involving high school field trips, my parents and this Plants vs. Zombies game. On top of that, in my dream I was sick.

My alarm went off at 6 a.m. and I thought well I’m sick anyways so I’ll hit snooze a couple of times and call my boss at 7 to let him know I wont make it in today, except I am not sick! My dream made me think I was. I ended up accidentally turning off my alarm. I woke up at 7:20 and realized what a crazy dream I was having and that I wasn’t sick and I needed to get my booty out of bed to be at work by 8. Anyways…I made it to work 10 minutes late, but everyone else was running late too! Ha and I thought I was going to have some explaining to do.

There is a meaning to this ramble, I promise. I was so grumpy because I was running late and just in a really foul mood, but it all turned out okay. My husband got up and made me a grilled chicken salad to take for lunch, I managed to get a cup of coffee made before walking out the door, I was not the only one late to work, the weather is a beautiful 57 degrees, and I have the most amazing view of the sun shining down through the trees at my desk.

Does this ever happen to you? You get so wrapped up in what seems like a huge ordeal and really it’s…nothing. Just reading this again now makes me laugh at how caught up I got in the moment.

It reminds me of the teacher in Ecclesiastes 1-3…2 “Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher. “Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.”…What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the 9 What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun…14 I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind…12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

I think God must laugh at us…most of the time. 🙂 I believe he has that great fatherly chuckle, like he knows a great secret that we couldn’t possible understand because we are too young. And whenever I have a day like this and I get upset and want to throw a tantrum…I end up feeling so embarrassed.

Sorry God. I woke up with my mind on the things of this world and focused on me; how selfish. Everything I “have” isn’t even mine. You are just loaning it to me until I come back home. I hope I can make you proud, I hope I can accomplish all the things you have planned out for me. I know you already see it all, like it’s already done, but I don’t. I feel stuck sometimes and I’m looking for the easy button, but I’m waiting until I hear you say, “Go, take the next step.”

Even though I make plans, it really is meaningless in a wonderful way. I may have woken up on the “wrong side of the bed,” but He had me exactly where He wanted. Maybe I wouldn’t have heard Him this morning if I had done things on my own terms.

Be Blessed, Adri