I always have weird dreams. Some are just a mixture of what I have been talking about with people and what I watch on TV, others are just totally weird and out of no where. Then, there are the dreams that come directly from God. Those are different from every other dream. They are more like a vision, or like watching a movie in 3D with some type of super surround sound where you see, feel, hear, and smell everything going on. (I’m sure you could taste too if that had something to do with the vision.) :)
I’m no dream expert and I don’t try to evaluate and find out what each of my dreams mean, but if I have a dream that I remember so vividly like it was something that happened yesterday, then I take a closer look. God can talk to us in many ways and I don’t want to miss a chance of talking to Him.
In my dream last night it was like I could not open my eyes wide enough or something was covering my eyes. Almost like super dark and grainy sunglasses. I even had to rub my eyes a lot once a woke up this morning to make sure I really could see. All throughout my dream I had the horrible man leading me around through all these broken down buildings. He was evil, I could just feel it. He made me so upset because he kept talking about all the women’s lives he had messed up, and how he had hurt so many people in different ways.
It makes me shudder just typing about this.
I kept trying to get away from him and get out where I could see, but I was lost. We were in a maze of dilapidated buildings and it was almost like we were underground. Finally we got to this filthy room where there was only one door in and out. There was a shower in the corner and a broken sink and a toilet right in the middle of this gross room. The [evil] man walked over to the toilet and kept shoving things back down into it that were popping up.
I somehow got to the shower and was trying to hang this curtain back up. I knew I had to put that shower curtain up, but the man just kept laughing and laughing and shoving things back in to the toilet and telling me I’m worthless and I’ll never be able to do it. I tried to yell back, “Yes I can, I can do anything.” But, it came out weird and echoing instead. Then people starting coming in to the room to help me. It started getting brighter and we all struggled and worked hard to get that curtain up and finally we did and we all fit behind it in the shower. Then I could see, and I woke up.
I started getting ready for work and all I kept praying was, “Man, God I never want to know that kind of darkness and evil. I never want to be in a place like that. I want to always know you and have your light everywhere I am. I always want to be with you.”
It was amazing really. I had been having a hard time praying recently and felt it was just the enemy pressing down on me. Every time I prayed it felt like it was fake, that I was just reciting things I’m supposed to say and pray for. And finally this morning when I woke up and prayed it was very real. I never wanted to be a dark place like that where I could see and didn’t know how to get out of it. I had broken through a barrier that was around me and maybe I had placed it on myself.
All I know is that I never want to go back to living in the world. I never want to lose my faith and love for Jesus. I never want to lose site of what is really important and what is just meaningless and of the world, because I think that’s how it would be if I did. It would be just like my dream. And in the unseen world I would be led around blind by something evil, just like all those who don’t yet know about Jesus.
I’m no longer walking around blind, but I know people who are and I want so much for them to know true and everlasting love and comfort.